230.英文正文（230）

thenalmostwithoutapausehewrotebeneathit：

butthentherecameasortofcheck。***hismind，asthoughshyingawayfromsomething，seemedunabletoconcentrate。heknewthatheknewwhatcamenext，butforthemomenthecouldnotrecallit。whenhedidrecallit，itwasonlybyconsciouslyreasoningoutwhatitmustbe：itdidnotcomeofitsownaccord。hewrote：

heacceptedeverything。thepastwasalterable。thepastneverhadbeenaltered。oceaniawasatwarwitheastasia。oceaniahadalwaysbeenatwarwitheastasia。jones，aaronson，andrutherfordwereguiltyofthecrimestheywerechargedwith。hehadneverseenthephotographthatdisprovedtheirguilt。ithadneverexisted，hehadinventedit。herememberedrememberingcontrarythings，butthosewerefalsememories，productsofself-deception。howeasyitallwas！onlysurrender，andeverythingelsefollowed。itwaslikeswimmingagainstacurrentthatsweptyoubackwardshoweverhardyoustruggled，andthensuddenlydecidingtoturnroundandgowiththecurrentinsteadofopposingit。nothinghadchangedexceptyourownattitude：thepredestinedthinghappenedinanycase。hehardlyknewwhyhehadeverrebelled。everythingwaseasy，except！

anythingcouldbetrue。theso-calledlawsofnaturewerenonsense。thelawofgravitywasnonsense。“ifiwished，”o’brienhadsaid，“icouldfloatoffthisfloorlikeasoapbubble。”winstonworkeditout。“ifhethinkshefloatsoffthefloor，andifisimultaneouslythinkiseehimdoit，thenthethinghappens。”suddenly，likealumpofsubmergedwreckagebreakingthesurfaceofwater，thethoughtburstintohismind：“itdoesn’treallyhappen。weimagineit。itishallucination。”hepushedthethoughtunderinstantly。thefallacywasobvious。itpresupposedthatsomewhereorother，outsideoneself，therewasa“real”worldwhere“real”thingshappened。buthowcouldtherebesuchaworld？whatknowledgehaveweofanything，savethroughourownminds？allhappeningsareinthemind。whateverhappensinallminds，trulyhappens。