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hismindgrewmoreactive。***hesatdownontheplankbed，hisbackagainstthewallandtheslateonhisknees，andsettoworkdeliberatelyatthetaskofre-educatinghimself。hehadcapitulated，thatwasagreed。inreality，ashesawnow，hehadbeenreadytocapitulatelongbeforehehadtakenthedecision。fromthemomentwhenhewasinsidetheministryoflove—andyes，evenduringthoseminuteswhenheandjuliahadstoodhelplesswhiletheironvoicefromthetelescreentoldthemwhattodo—hehadgraspedthefrivolity，theshallownessofhisattempttosethimselfupagainstthepoweroftheparty。heknewnowthatforsevenyearsthethoughtpolicehadwatchedhimlikeabeetleunderamagnifyingglass。therewasnophysicalact，nowordspokenaloud，thattheyhadnotnoticed，notrainofthoughtthattheyhadnotbeenabletoinfer。eventhespeckofwhitishdustonthecoverofhisdiarytheyhadcarefullyreplaced。theyhadplayedsound-trackstohim，shownhimphotographs。someofthemwerephotographsofjuliaandhimself。yes，even。。。hecouldnotfightagainstthepartyanylonger。besides，thepartywasintheright。itmustbeso；howcouldtheimmortal，collectivebrainbemistaken？bywhatexternalstandardcouldyoucheckitsjudgements？sanitywasstatistical。itwasmerelyaquestionoflearningtothinkastheythought。only！

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