205.英文正文（205）

“four！five！four！anythingyoulike。onlystopit，stopthepain！”

abruptlyhewassittingupwitho’brien’sarmroundhisshoulders。hehadperhapslostconsciousnessforafewseconds。thebondsthathadheldhisbodydownwereloosened。hefeltverycold，hewasshakinguncontrollably，histeethwerechattering，thetearswererollingdownhischeeks。foramomentheclungtoo’brienlikeababy，curiouslycomfortedbytheheavyarmroundhisshoulders。hehadthefeelingthato’brienwashisprotector，thatthepainwassomethingthatcamefromoutside，fromsomeothersource，andthatitwaso’brienwhowouldsavehimfromit。

“youareaslowlearner，winston，”saido’briengently。

“howcanihelpit？”heblubbered。“howcanihelpseeingwhatisinfrontofmyeyes？twoandtwoarefour。”

“sometimes，winston。sometimestheyarefive。sometimestheyarethree。sometimestheyareallofthematonce。youmusttryharder。itisnoteasytobecomesane。”

helaidwinstondownonthebed。thegripofhislimbstightenedagain，butthepainhadebbedawayandthetremblinghadstopped，leavinghimmerelyweakandcold。o’brienmotionedwithhisheadtothemaninthewhitecoat，whohadstoodimmobilethroughouttheproceedings。themaninthewhitecoatbentdownandlookedcloselyintowinston’seyes，felthispulse，laidanearagainsthischest，tappedhereandthere，thenhenoddedtoo’brien。

“again，”saido’brien。

thepainflowedintowinston’sbody。theneedlemustbeatseventy，seventy-five。hehadshuthiseyesthistime。heknewthatthefingerswerestillthere，andstillfour。allthatmatteredwassomehowtostayaliveuntilthespasmwasover。hehadceasedtonoticewhetherhewascryingoutornot。thepainlessenedagain。heopenedhiseyes。o’brienhaddrawnbackthelever。