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“whatisinroom101?”
theexpressionono’brien’sfacedidnotchange。heanswereddrily:
“youknowwhatisinroom101,winston。everyoneknowswhatisinroom101。”
heraisedafingertothemaninthewhitecoat。evidentlythesessionwasatanend。aneedlejerkedintowinston’sarm。hesankalmostinstantlyintodeepsleep。
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“therearethreestagesinyourreintegration,”saido’brien。“thereislearning,thereisunderstanding,andthereisacceptance。itistimeforyoutoenteruponthesecondstage。”
asalways,winstonwaslyingflatonhisback。butoflatehisbondswerelooser。theystillheldhimtothebed,buthecouldmovehiskneesalittleandcouldturnhisheadfromsidetosideandraisehisarmsfromtheelbow。thedial,also,hadgrowntobelessofaterror。hecouldevadeitspangsifhewasquick-wittedenough:itwaschieflywhenheshowedstupiditythato’brienpulledthelever。sometimestheygotthroughawholesessionwithoutuseofthedial。hecouldnotrememberhowmanysessionstherehadbeen。thewholeprocessseemedtostretchoutoveralong,indefinitetime—weeks,possibly—andtheintervalsbetweenthesessionsmightsometimeshavebeendays,sometimesonlyanhourortwo。
“asyouliethere,”saido’brien,“youhaveoftenwonderedyouhaveevenaskedme—whytheministryofloveshouldexpendsomuchtimeandtroubleonyou。andwhenyouwerefreeyouwerepuzzledbywhatwasessentiallythesamequestion。youcouldgraspthemechanicsofthesocietyyoulivedin,butnotitsunderlyingmotives。doyourememberwritinginyourdiary,‘iunderstandhow:idonotunderstandwhy’?itwaswhenyouthoughtabout‘why’thatyoudoubtedyourownsanity。youhavereadthebook,goldstein’sbook,orpartsofit,atleast。didittellyouanythingthatyoudidnotknowalready?”