CHAPTER 33
Itwastwoo’clockinthemorningwhenPilarwakedhim.Asherhandtouchedhimhethought,atfirst,itwasMariaandherolledtowardherandsaid,“Rabbit.”Thenthewoman’sbighandshookhisshoulderandhewassuddenly,completelyandabsolutelyawakeandhishandwasaroundthebuttofthepistolthatlayalongsideofhisbarerightlegandallofhimwasascockedasthepistolwithitssafetycatchslippedoff.
InthedarkhesawitwasPilarandhelookedatthedialofhiswristwatchwiththetwohandsshiningintheshortangleclosetothetopandseeingitwasonlytwo,hesaid,“Whatpasseswiththee,woman?”
“Pabloisgone,”thebigwomansaidtohim.
RobertJordanputonhistrousersandshoes.Mariahadnotwaked.
“When?”heasked.
“Itmustbeanhour.”
“And?”
“Hehastakensomethingofthine,”thewomansaidmiserably.
“So.What?”
“Idonotknow,”shetoldhim.“Comeandsee.”
Inthedarktheywalkedovertotheentranceofthecave,duckedundertheblanketandwentin.RobertJordanfollowedherinthedead-ashes,bad-airandsleeping-mensmellofthecave,shininghiselectrictorchsothathewouldnotsteponanyofthosewhoweresleepingonthefloor.Anselmowokeandsaid,“Isittime?”
“No,”RobertJordanwhispered.“Sleep,oldone.”
ThetwosackswereattheheadofPilar’sbedwhichwasscreenedoffwithahangingblanketfromtherestofthecave.Thebedsmeltstaleandsweat-driedandsickly-sweetthewayanIndian’sbeddoesasRobertJordankneltonitandshonethetorchonthetwosacks.Therewasalongslitfromtoptobottomineachone.Holdingthetorchinhislefthand,RobertJordanfeltinthefirstsackwithhisrighthand.Thiswastheonethathecarriedhisrobeinanditshouldnotbeveryfull.Itwasnotveryfull.Therewassomewireinitstillbutthesquarewoodenboxoftheexploderwasgone.Sowasthecigarboxwiththecarefullywrappedandpackeddetonators.Sowasthescrew-toptinwiththefuseandthecaps.
RobertJordanfeltintheothersack.Itwasstillfullofexplosive.Theremightbeonepacketmissing.
Hestoodupandturnedtothewoman.Thereisahollowemptyfeelingthatamancanhavewhenheiswakedtooearlyinthemorningthatisalmostlikethefeelingofdisasterandhehadthismultipliedathousandtimes.
“Andthisiswhatyoucallguardingone’smaterials,”hesaid.
“Isleptwithmyheadagainstthemandonearmtouchingthem,”Pilartoldhim.
“Yousleptwell.”
“Listen,”thewomansaid.“HegotupinthenightandIsaid,‘Wheredoyougo,Pablo?’‘Tourinate,woman,’hetoldmeandIsleptagain.WhenIwokeagainIdidnotknowwhattimehadpassedbutIthought,whenhewasnotthere,thathehadgonedowntolookatthehorsesaswashiscustom.Then,”shefinishedmiserably,“whenhedidnotcomeIworriedandwhenIworriedIfeltofthesackstobesureallwaswellandthereweretheslitplacesandIcametothee.”
“Comeon,”RobertJordansaid.
Theywereoutsidenowanditwasstillsonearthemiddleofthenightthatyoucouldnotfeelthemorningcoming.
“Canhegetoutwiththehorsesotherwaysthanbythesentry?”
“Twoways.”
“Who’satthetop?”
“Eladio.”
RobertJordansaidnothingmoreuntiltheyreachedthemeadowwherethehorseswerestakedouttofeed.Therewerethreehorsesfeedinginthemeadow.Thebigbayandthegrayweregone.
“Howlongagodoyouthinkitwasheleftyou?”
“Itmusthavebeenanhour.”
“Thenthatisthat,”RobertJordansaid.“Igotogetwhatisleftofmysacksandgobacktobed.”
“Iwillguardthem.”
“Quéva,youwillguardthem.You’veguardedthemoncealready.”
“Inglé,”thewomansaid,“Ifeelinregardtothisasyoudo.ThereisnothingIwouldnotdotobringbackthyproperty.Youhavenoneedtohurtme.WehavebothbeenbetrayedbyPablo.”
AsshesaidthisRobertJordanrealizedthathecouldnotaffordtheluxuryofbeingbitter,thathecouldnotquarrelwiththiswoman.Hehadtoworkwiththiswomanonthatdaythatwasalreadytwohoursandmoregone.
Heputhishandonhershoulder.“Itisnothing,Pilar,”hetoldher.“Whatisgoneisofsmallimportance.Weshallimprovisesomethingthatwilldoaswell.”
“Butwhatdidhetake?”
“Nothing,woman.Someluxuriesthatonepermitsoneself.”
“Wasitpartofthymechanismfortheexploding?”
“Yes.Butthereareotherwaystodotheexploding.Tellme,didPablonothavecapsandfuse?Surelytheywouldhaveequippedhimwiththose?”
“Hehastakenthem,”shesaidmiserably.“Ilookedatonceforthem.Theyaregone,too.”
Theywalkedbackthroughthewoodstotheentranceofthecave.
“Getsomesleep,”hesaid.“WearebetteroffwithPablogone.”
“IgotoseeEladio.”
“Hewillhavegoneanotherway.”
“Igoanyway.Ihavebetrayedtheewithmylackofsmartness.”
“Nay,”hesaid.“Getsomesleep,woman.Wemustbeunderwayatfour.”
Hewentintothecavewithherandbroughtoutthetwosacks,carryingthemheldtogetherinbotharmssothatnothingcouldspillfromtheslits.
“Letmesewthemup.”
“Beforewestart,”hesaidsoftly.“ItakethemnotagainstyoubutsothatIcansleep.”
“Imusthavethemearlytosewthem.”
“Youshallhavethemearly,”hetoldher.“Getsomesleep,woman.”
“Nay,”shesaid.“IhavefailedtheeandIhavefailedtheRepublic.”
“Gettheesomesleep,woman,”hetoldhergently.“Gettheesomesleep.”